my newest flower.. for a good reason actually.. but soon. it will die.. just like all the others. i want flowers that last a life time.. or atleast a new one at the same moment the other is gone.. i save them you know.. if not the whole thing.. atleast some petals.. from every single one..
i’m feeling a little better this week.. my child on the other hand isn’t. she’s having a rough week.. crying. crying. crying. sometimes. i could loose my mind i think… ahhh.. children. love her to pieces though.
“And I’ll cry for you
Yes, I’ll die for you
Pain in my heart it is real
And I’ll tell you now how I feel inside
Feel in my heart it’s for you
And I’ll take everything
As it comes my way
Pushin’ your pain ’round my door
And I’ll cry for you yes I’ll die for you
Is this blood on my hands all for you?”
-Candelbox, You
a lot of randomness. my mood. i miss him.. sometimes when he thinks i’m sleeping he whispers that he’s gonna marry me.. i pretend not to hear…sigh. i love him so.
i love you so.